Hunting is very different from seeking, because of the fierceness of intention behind it.
There’s a love she’s looking for but doesn’t want to know, but if she can’t take the pain that comes with it then she’s even less deserving of this love than he is. So she disguises herself to be close to him in a way that’s impossible for a lover; a way that will make her feel complete without actually being so. She will make him look for her, by hunting him with the patience of a starving lion.
Their love is unique in the way that it isn’t lost, but rather ignored, and even if this hunt takes her around in circles, she’s pretty sure it will all be worth it in the end.