Ever since the engagement, her waking moments have become darker than a nightmare. She tries to tell herself that she’s okay; that she’ll pull through somehow and the fear will stay inside her head, but she’s facing the kind of unknown that she can’t be curious about, even if she were the world’s bravest soul.
She marks the path of reality with peas and lentils, and reminds herself that she must pay attention to the small details before making any decision. Even so, the greatest wisdom lies with the elderly, and the finger of a married woman becomes her escape.
Everyone tells her she’s supposed to be happy, but after her engagement, she now believes that happiness goes beyond the dream of getting married to a darling, and always includes a little foolishness that’s been forgiven.